Time for a Change

I have battled depression for as long as I can remember. For a time, I was taking medication but didn’t like the side effects so I quit taking it. I always thought depression is something I should be able to fix on my own, right? If I’m a jerk, that’s just who I am. I have learned through the years that I am not a jerk, for the most part, but depression still haunts me on a daily basis. At this point, I even think it is more of being bi-polar vs. depression.

Lately, I have been about as depressed as I can remember. Most of it has to do with the feeling of being trapped in a situation that I don’t have much control over. I have grown very tired of living in the Midwest and my stagnant job. Also, since I have lost weight, the cold has an even sharper bite than it once did. I sit by more heaters and bundle up more this year than I have before and it is not even officially winter yet. It’s time to migrate to the warmth, the problem is, it’s not possible at this point.

I was told by the better half at one point that if I found a job out west that would be the first step in our migration. Well, that happened and here I still sit shivering in the cold. Unfortunately, she was told she could not transfer her job, which she likes, at this time or anytime soon. It was not easy to turn down a job offer coming from Phoenix. All I can think now is how nice it would be to be done with snow, corn, and Midwest boringness.

So often, people say happiness is a choice. Sometimes, I guess, but not for me. My choice is to move away from this place. I don’t want to be here anymore. I have lived in Indiana my whole life. I feel like I have seen every place and driven down every road. It’s time for new adventures, discoveries, and a new address. Getting up every day here in the dark with the temps creeping toward zero do not lead to smiles and rainbows for me … sorry.

I have started the back nine of life. I have played like crap on the front nine and am looking for a good drive off the tee on No. 10. The longer I stay here, the more I will surely slice my ball into the woods. It’s time to explore the greener fairways of the Southwest.

Some people will say that I will never find the happiness I am looking for by moving away. I guess that kind of falls into the same thought that money doesn’t buy happiness. Well, in both cases, that is something I would like to learn for myself. At least in Arizona, I won’t be freezing my balls off in the dark, cold winter.

I guess my depression stems from feeling trapped without knowing how to fix it. Happiness can be a choice, but very hard when you are stuck in a place you no longer wish to be.


The Weight is Under

My blog has often talked about my weight, which has been an issue for a very long time. I have talked about losing 90 pounds by the time I turned 50, but that came and went with nothing to write home about. Well, my new hope is 102 by 52.

You might think what makes this dope think he is going to lose 102 pounds by the time he turns 52 (in about 10 months). Well, thanks to the Keto diet, I am well on my way, losing 55 pounds since March. That weight loss has put me past the halfway point of losing 102 pounds to get down to my goal of 169 pounds. I am a mere 46 pounds away! Still plenty of work to do, but very doable at this point. I think I will achieve my goal by the end of the year.

The Keto diet has been the easiest diet I have been on. When I reach my goal, I am going to go back to a more traditional diet to maintain my new weight. Last month, I started incorporating a cheat meal on the first of the month … I had a couple of slices of pizza and a donut, which made me gain 3 pounds the next day, but that was short lived. I ended up losing a net 3 pounds over the remainder of the week.

This diet, for me, is a sprint, not a marathon. I want to get back to eating regular food, just at a reduced pace to maintain the goal I will have achieved. It has started to get monotonous eating so many of the same things. That being said, I think I can make it through until the end of the year when the scale releases me from this diet.

I have started going to the gym a bit and walking more, but the diet is the key for me. I very rarely feel hungry on this diet, which is an added bonus.

Thanks for checking in, I have to get my stuff together to head to the gym.

Phoenix or Bust

We have kicked around the idea of moving out west for some time now. Well, the time is now. We are planning to move to the Phoenix area by August. The hardest part is finding a job. Any ideas on the best route to securing employment before I make the move in a couple of months?

I have tried Linkedin, Indeed, Glassdoor, etc. I have been contacted by a couple of employment agencies in the area, but still nothing. I have been with my same company for 13 years doing Accounts Payable/Accounts Receivable and expense reporting. I also have a background that includes positions as a real estate broker and an award-winning sports editor. I recently finished my degree after chasing that elusive prize for 20 years off and on.

I feel that my varied background would be a benefit for any company willing to give me a shot. I will continue my career pursuit in the employment market in Phoenix. I know something will come up, some company will be getting one heck of an employee that will be bringing a wealth of experience and knowledge to a brand new position in a brand new life setting.

I cannot wait to make the move and start the next chapter in our lives. We look so forward to having new places to explore, new sights to see, and new friends to make.

Challenges will be there, but we will be ready to take on those challenges to prosper and enjoy our new home in the desert!